sutup

tadi malem gue putus ya ampun gue lagi sayang bgt sama dia,eh tiba tiba dia minta putus.gue ga mau suatu hubungan dipaksain jadi yaudah dari pada dia terpaksa tetep diterusin mending pisah aja.gue kaget krn gue belum mau pisah tapi yaudah gapapa deh gue menerima.kalo ditanya soal sedih,gue sedih banget ya gimana ga sedih gue lagi sayang banget eh tiba tiba pisah,tapi mudah mudahan besok udah gapapa.kalo ditanya gue mau balikan atau ga,gue ga mau balikan,gue ga mau sakitnya keulang hehe.yah gue kira hubungan ini bisa lama tapi ternyata ga,yaudah deh gapapa.ga menolak yg datang ga mengejar yg pergi (kecuali 1 org yg bakal tetep ada).gue bakal nemuin yg lebih baik kok

resolusi resolusi

yaaaak kita semua ninggalin 2009, tapi bukan berarti kenangannya dibuang gitu aja hehe gue sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiih sebanget bangetnya ninggalin 2009 krn banyak bgt kenangan di 2009 yg ga bisa gue lupain, tapiiiiiii gue juga mau 2010 bisa jadi tahun yg lebih baik hihi, makasih banget buat semua teman2 yg udah bantu gue di 2009, gue mohon bantuannya lagi di tahun depaaaaan hehe.
okeeeee sekarang resolusi gue, pokonya tahun ini gue harus kurusan drastis hahak, gue harus bisa mikir positif ke semua hal, gue harus bisa masuk ipa, gue harus bisa berfikir dewasa dan ga ngecewain orang2 yg gue sayang, gue harus rajin solat dan ngaji, gue harus pol puasanya tahun ini ehehehe. semoga gue bisa berubah ya Allaaaaaaaaah amiiiiiiiiiiiin, bantu aku yaaa bahaha

lepas

it made me open my eyes,my mind,and my heart for every words they said to me. my parents,my best friends,my boy,my ex,my friends. they said 'justine,world isn't small as you think,and life isn't unfair as you feel.time will give what you want,if you can give your best for every part of your life and everyone who beside you all the time'.
kesalahan kecil yg bertumpuk menjadi gunung yg bisa meletus kapan aja,gunung itu sudah meletus sekarang,dan saya sebagai org yg bertanggung jawab atas terjadinya gunung tersebut akan merapihkan kembali dan memperbaiki diri sendiri agar tdk membuat gunung lain

my everlasting

ada 5 orang sahabat yg everlasting buat gue, ova lia novi dini dan nabila, mereka paling hebat. yaaaa kita semua misah, lia novi ova 78, gue dini 65, nabil 3. kita jarang ketemu pada sibuk semua hehehe. but i miss you so much guys, and i love you so much. gue kangen sama ova dengan semua cacatnya dan keras kepalanya, pokonya dia adik terbaik gue ga ada yg bisa gantiin, i love you va. gue kangen lia dengan semua omongannya yg tajam, keras kepalanya, gengsinya, tapi dia teman curhat terbaik sedunia, dia yg nolongin gue keluar dari masalah2 gue, i love you li. gue kangen novi dengan keibuannya, keras kepalanya, gengsinya, pelukannya, dan curhatannya akan segala sesuatu, dia teman yg ada kapan saja, i love you nov. gue kangen dini dengan segala keras kepalanya, gengsinya, kemewahannya akan segala sesuatu, rambut keritingnya, obrolan ttg cowo2 (tapi sekarang udah ga pernah), dia teman yg mempunyai pelukan terbaik, i love you din. gue kangen nabila sangat, dengan kekonyolannya, keras kepalanya, tiada malunya, dia teman yg selalu hadir dengan canda yg ga ada habisnya, dia teman dengan kekonyolan terbaik di dunia, i love you bil.

mereka tetep dihati gue walaupun udah pisah, gue kangen mereka banget. mereka sahabat terbaik di dunia dan ga ada yg bisa gantiin. ketika kita berantem, nangis, ketawa, gosip, bercanda, dan segala hal yg kita laluin, gue mau itu balik lagi, dan semua kenangan yg ga ada habisnya yg ga bakal gue lupain. gue mau cita2 kita terwujud ttg rumah kita yg berderet, nanti kita kaya desperate housewives hahaha. gue mau nanti kalo kita nikah tglnya berderet, dan kita bisa cerita2 ttg malam pertama kita nanti hihi pasti seru. plis jangan misah gue ga mau punya sahabat yg lain selain kalian, karena gue sangat sayang kalian. kalian adalah sahabat yg bener2 sahabat bagi gue. gue sayang kalian, bangeeeeeet. muah buat kalian

means behind some words

pretty face against worst heart
truth outside against lie inside
innocent smile against devil's mind
uncontrol against patient
screaming against cooling
whenever you there against i will go nowhere
stop to say bullshit against let's face it
what do you want against this is what you'll get
80% mind against 20% heart
or 80% mind, 20% heart against 20% mind, 80% heart?

use your mind and attitude
throw away your dreams let's face the truth

if you can change into a better person and there are another chance, will you take that chance?
and if someone just kicked you out before they give you a chance, what will you do?
just go and face the truth or beg for another chance?

and when you realize that you are more precious than what they give to you, what will you do?
you say 'enough, i can face it and back into my wonderful life' or you think that you can do it but you really afraid to face all of that shit?

just turn back into yourself and find from your deepest heart, what will you gonna be

fifteen - taylor swift

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors




it's suppose to be me, thanks :)

oh ya ampuuuuuuuun

ya ampun tadi gue beli dvd bajakan (hem hem) sama ova ke permata hijau daaaaaaaaan pulangnya gue sama ova lewat jembatan penyebrangan (gue takut ketinggian padahal). ova ngeledekin gue melulu mau ngedorong2 gue (boong deng), gue nempel mulu sama dia hahahahak. tapi gue ngerasa ada satu hal yg janggal, ya gue sama ova denger suara langkah kaki pas kita udah mau turun dari jembatan penyebrangan pas gue liat ke belakang ternyata ga ada orang refleks gue lari anjrit itu serem banget ya pas gue dan ova udah sampe dibawah kita langsung ngecek lapisan atas jembatan itu dan emg ga ada orang sama sekali hahaha parah dah gue sama ova langsung nyengir dan sama sama diem pas gue sama ova udah naik metro mini kita ngobrolin dan kata ova "kayanya emg tadi ada yg ngikutin ka" gue jawab "elu sih ngeledekin gue mulu, ya Allah maaf ya ga ada niat ganggu bener deh" sumpah gue sekut banget hehe