resolusi resolusi

yaaaak kita semua ninggalin 2009, tapi bukan berarti kenangannya dibuang gitu aja hehe gue sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiih sebanget bangetnya ninggalin 2009 krn banyak bgt kenangan di 2009 yg ga bisa gue lupain, tapiiiiiii gue juga mau 2010 bisa jadi tahun yg lebih baik hihi, makasih banget buat semua teman2 yg udah bantu gue di 2009, gue mohon bantuannya lagi di tahun depaaaaan hehe.
okeeeee sekarang resolusi gue, pokonya tahun ini gue harus kurusan drastis hahak, gue harus bisa mikir positif ke semua hal, gue harus bisa masuk ipa, gue harus bisa berfikir dewasa dan ga ngecewain orang2 yg gue sayang, gue harus rajin solat dan ngaji, gue harus pol puasanya tahun ini ehehehe. semoga gue bisa berubah ya Allaaaaaaaaah amiiiiiiiiiiiin, bantu aku yaaa bahaha

lepas

it made me open my eyes,my mind,and my heart for every words they said to me. my parents,my best friends,my boy,my ex,my friends. they said 'justine,world isn't small as you think,and life isn't unfair as you feel.time will give what you want,if you can give your best for every part of your life and everyone who beside you all the time'.
kesalahan kecil yg bertumpuk menjadi gunung yg bisa meletus kapan aja,gunung itu sudah meletus sekarang,dan saya sebagai org yg bertanggung jawab atas terjadinya gunung tersebut akan merapihkan kembali dan memperbaiki diri sendiri agar tdk membuat gunung lain

my everlasting

ada 5 orang sahabat yg everlasting buat gue, ova lia novi dini dan nabila, mereka paling hebat. yaaaa kita semua misah, lia novi ova 78, gue dini 65, nabil 3. kita jarang ketemu pada sibuk semua hehehe. but i miss you so much guys, and i love you so much. gue kangen sama ova dengan semua cacatnya dan keras kepalanya, pokonya dia adik terbaik gue ga ada yg bisa gantiin, i love you va. gue kangen lia dengan semua omongannya yg tajam, keras kepalanya, gengsinya, tapi dia teman curhat terbaik sedunia, dia yg nolongin gue keluar dari masalah2 gue, i love you li. gue kangen novi dengan keibuannya, keras kepalanya, gengsinya, pelukannya, dan curhatannya akan segala sesuatu, dia teman yg ada kapan saja, i love you nov. gue kangen dini dengan segala keras kepalanya, gengsinya, kemewahannya akan segala sesuatu, rambut keritingnya, obrolan ttg cowo2 (tapi sekarang udah ga pernah), dia teman yg mempunyai pelukan terbaik, i love you din. gue kangen nabila sangat, dengan kekonyolannya, keras kepalanya, tiada malunya, dia teman yg selalu hadir dengan canda yg ga ada habisnya, dia teman dengan kekonyolan terbaik di dunia, i love you bil.

mereka tetep dihati gue walaupun udah pisah, gue kangen mereka banget. mereka sahabat terbaik di dunia dan ga ada yg bisa gantiin. ketika kita berantem, nangis, ketawa, gosip, bercanda, dan segala hal yg kita laluin, gue mau itu balik lagi, dan semua kenangan yg ga ada habisnya yg ga bakal gue lupain. gue mau cita2 kita terwujud ttg rumah kita yg berderet, nanti kita kaya desperate housewives hahaha. gue mau nanti kalo kita nikah tglnya berderet, dan kita bisa cerita2 ttg malam pertama kita nanti hihi pasti seru. plis jangan misah gue ga mau punya sahabat yg lain selain kalian, karena gue sangat sayang kalian. kalian adalah sahabat yg bener2 sahabat bagi gue. gue sayang kalian, bangeeeeeet. muah buat kalian

means behind some words

pretty face against worst heart
truth outside against lie inside
innocent smile against devil's mind
uncontrol against patient
screaming against cooling
whenever you there against i will go nowhere
stop to say bullshit against let's face it
what do you want against this is what you'll get
80% mind against 20% heart
or 80% mind, 20% heart against 20% mind, 80% heart?

use your mind and attitude
throw away your dreams let's face the truth

if you can change into a better person and there are another chance, will you take that chance?
and if someone just kicked you out before they give you a chance, what will you do?
just go and face the truth or beg for another chance?

and when you realize that you are more precious than what they give to you, what will you do?
you say 'enough, i can face it and back into my wonderful life' or you think that you can do it but you really afraid to face all of that shit?

just turn back into yourself and find from your deepest heart, what will you gonna be

fifteen - taylor swift

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors




it's suppose to be me, thanks :)

oh ya ampuuuuuuuun

ya ampun tadi gue beli dvd bajakan (hem hem) sama ova ke permata hijau daaaaaaaaan pulangnya gue sama ova lewat jembatan penyebrangan (gue takut ketinggian padahal). ova ngeledekin gue melulu mau ngedorong2 gue (boong deng), gue nempel mulu sama dia hahahahak. tapi gue ngerasa ada satu hal yg janggal, ya gue sama ova denger suara langkah kaki pas kita udah mau turun dari jembatan penyebrangan pas gue liat ke belakang ternyata ga ada orang refleks gue lari anjrit itu serem banget ya pas gue dan ova udah sampe dibawah kita langsung ngecek lapisan atas jembatan itu dan emg ga ada orang sama sekali hahaha parah dah gue sama ova langsung nyengir dan sama sama diem pas gue sama ova udah naik metro mini kita ngobrolin dan kata ova "kayanya emg tadi ada yg ngikutin ka" gue jawab "elu sih ngeledekin gue mulu, ya Allah maaf ya ga ada niat ganggu bener deh" sumpah gue sekut banget hehe

benci (eaaaaaaaa)

kalo gue udah benci atau males sama org bisa sampe lama tapi sekarang lagi ga ada sih hehe tapi ya itu lah gue kalo udah benci tuh bisa ga mau ngeliat tuh orang sampe bertahun tahun (lebay) atau ga mau komunikasi sama orang itu sampe gue lupa pernah benci sama dia. emg ini sifat gue yg paling buruk dan sampe sekarang gue blm bisa ngilangin sifat itu, gimana caranya ya? jawabannya gue ga tau dan gue ga bisa atau terkadang gue ga mau hahahaha. gue bisa membalas 10x lipat kalo ada org yg bikin gue kesel atau sakit hati, dgn cara ngebales langsung ataupun berdoa biar org itu dapet karma. terkadang bisa dibilang balesannya datengnya lama tapi kadang bisa cepet sekehendak Allah aja, dan gue selalu bersyukur sama Allah kalo org itu udah dpt balasannya (jahat emang tapi bodo amat, gue ga peduli krn org itu udah buat gue sakit). gue tau di dunia ini org tuh sebenernya ga ada yg jahat tapi kadang beberapa org ada yg melakukan yg menurut dia baik padahal menurut org lain itu adalah hal buruk. daaaaan kadang gue jg dapet balesan yg alhamdulillah nya ada aja jalan keluarnya, ya Allah alhamdulillah untuk semuanya. hahaha ga bisa mikir apa-apa lagi gue, semoga gue ga benci sama org deh, walaupun ada satu org yg bikin gue males tapi gue masih bisa ngontrol diri supaya ga benci sama dia, semoga rasa malesnya bisa ilang amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin

nothing just empty

pernah ngerasa kaya lo bebas tapi lo seneng dan agak ngerasa takut? gue ngerasain ini sekarang dan gue berharap supaya ini ga cuma buat sekarang aja semoga gue bisa ngedapetin diri gue lagi kaya dulu, semoga gue bisa selamanya ngerasa gini. gue takut mau bebas tapi seneng karena gue ga punya beban lagi. hahahaha gara2 adrian nih jadi kaya gini,ova lia dini juga karena hari ini hari paling gila dan bisa ngebuat gue lepas dari semuanya. i love you so much everyone! aaaaaaaah gue takut tapi gue seneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeng banget. byeeeeeee

heartless lyrics

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 1]
How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 2]
How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

aaaaaaaah wtf

WHAT THE FUCK satu kalimat buat orang tolol yg nyia2in sahabat gue. gue ga tau knp jadi kesel banget ye sama lu, gue ga suka deh cara lu memperlakukan temen gue. gue tau gue orang luar tapi gue sayang sama sahabat gue dan gue ga suka lu ngegituin dia. apakah lo ngerasa ganteng bgt dgn seenaknya main tinggal gitu aja? anjriiiiiiit standing ovation deh buat lu, tepuk tangan meriah bgt gue kasih buat lu. keren keren gila ga nyangka gue ada orang sebegitu hebatnya mainin perasaan orang. eh sadar men sahabat gue tuh baik bgt sampe rela ngebiarin lu bahagia sama orang lain, ada ga tuh cewe kaya gitu? buta dasar lu, apa ga punya otak? ckck dasar player ngerasa hebat yeee bagus deh biar gue doain lu dapet karma yg paling karma, AMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN. dosa lu mainin orang

konser fadlan

Hari ini gue nonton fadlan konser,bete sebenernya krn gue duluan yg minta les piano eh malah fadlan yg di daftarin les tapi gapapa deh gue mengalah hahaha,dia awalnya takut tapi akhirnya berani jg wkwk.bnyk bgt yg udah jago dan mengingatkan gue pada ova,dia inspirasi gue knp gue mau les piano.jarinya lincah bgt ga bakal mungkin gue ngimbanginnya hehe.but i enjoyed the concert,they're amazing

adrian

adrian
cool, konyol, songong hahaha, baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiik banget, care, ga mau ribet, ganteng (wow), kurus, tinggi, suka manggil gue 'ndut', suka tebar pesona (walaupun ada gue) hahaha, suka ngerasa paling ganteng sedunia.
the coolest person ever, i love him so much no matter what he do. he always make me smile, and because of him i can back to normal again, with his silly behavior he can make me laugh even cry hihi. sometimes he cold like ice, i call him mr.cold haha. sometimes i get bedevil with him and i just can grumble all the time wkwkwk. if i'm angry he will say sorry and when he didn't get apologize he will silent for a moment. he's totally unique, and i always mesmerise. i love you yasa, so much. i know you know it hahaha but whatever cause i always like to say 'i love you' to you. i always beside you. i'm sorry if sometimes i hurt you, i never want to hurt you. i'm sorry if sometimes i'm jealous when you talk about your ex. i love you so much